A time that I experienced similar feeling to a person who has immigrated to a new country was the time that I transitioned from the sixth grade to the seventh grade. The pressure and the work were very intense. Usually when you transition from a normal grade, the complexity level doesn’t rise very much. The situation changing from elementary school to middle school is different. The feeling, or better said, the experience is at such a high level that I would say that it would be more like promoting up to two whole grades rather than just one.
The experience of being promoted is satisfying yet full of discontent. You feel like your life is fully complete yet it has just begun. Also, adding that when I transitioned from 6th to 7th grade, I actually started to fail a lot of my classes. When I went from those two grades, I went from an A average to an F average just like that. I also started to get more and more depressed. My frustration and my anxiety level went up and I started getting those malevolent thoughts of trying to harm or kill myself.
I couldn’t say that I fully got over my middle school transition. I am still feeling a little depressed. I am not so sure about the thoughts of committing suicide. My suicidal intent is, shall I say, suppressed for the time being. I couldn’t say that I have fully transitioned to middle school yet. Though it may not sound like it, but I really feel that I have come a long way from when I first technically transitioned into middle school. It is more like a psychological thing which only I and my literal brain could understand. It is like my feelings and emotions are being more and more contented everyday I live. I feel that it is impossible to fully achieve peace of mind. So I am transitioning everyday.